Strange Curses
Monday, November 13, 2006
Letter to myself
Dearest blogger,
I am still keeping my options open. I really dunno what will become of us. there are times when i spent time with her and i felt that there is really some hope for us. but then...sometimes, i just feel that it is a no. this is really confusing and complicated.
One woman is enuff for me to have a headache...then comes another one. She told me that she is attracted to me. well, i did told her about another her that i like.... and that we should remain as friends now. but i dun deny that she treats me well. and i know that the feeling of giving love indefinitely and not being truly appreciated and reciprocrated sux totally. it's even worse than being stranded on an island alone. I'd rather be alone.
Then, also got exams coming...been putting effort into studying but just couldn't really shift up my gears. i wonder how i will fare in my exams. i am just aiming for a pass...i just need the degree... maybe it's just that for 2 years i left my books untouched. I need time to readjust back.
money is another problem... but can be solved after my exams.. who needs help or got job lobang can look for me. i am very willing to take up ANY offers. but it must be after 27 Nov.
I will be going into hiding soon. I might piss some people off....but then if i do..pls forgive. I just need some personal space and peace to sought some of my thinking and solve my problems. when i am feeling better, i will come out from my shell.
Yours truly,
Strangecurses
I am still keeping my options open. I really dunno what will become of us. there are times when i spent time with her and i felt that there is really some hope for us. but then...sometimes, i just feel that it is a no. this is really confusing and complicated.
One woman is enuff for me to have a headache...then comes another one. She told me that she is attracted to me. well, i did told her about another her that i like.... and that we should remain as friends now. but i dun deny that she treats me well. and i know that the feeling of giving love indefinitely and not being truly appreciated and reciprocrated sux totally. it's even worse than being stranded on an island alone. I'd rather be alone.
Then, also got exams coming...been putting effort into studying but just couldn't really shift up my gears. i wonder how i will fare in my exams. i am just aiming for a pass...i just need the degree... maybe it's just that for 2 years i left my books untouched. I need time to readjust back.
money is another problem... but can be solved after my exams.. who needs help or got job lobang can look for me. i am very willing to take up ANY offers. but it must be after 27 Nov.
I will be going into hiding soon. I might piss some people off....but then if i do..pls forgive. I just need some personal space and peace to sought some of my thinking and solve my problems. when i am feeling better, i will come out from my shell.
Yours truly,
Strangecurses
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Still alive...for now
There are so many things on my mind for the last few days...
I am also burdened by my heavy heart...
But today...after 2 sleepless nights...I found my feet again..
At least i am motivated to mug for my exams and i would say that my progress is wonderful.
My sleeping pattern has gone nuts nowadays and i have never seen myself with such "wonderful" dark eye rings before...I am amazed.
Still alive and with a new haircut.
Siao Gu and me...2 of us have been friends i think since primary 1. i suspect that we even knew each other since kindergarden...only that i cannot recall much of those days.
Lying on my bike on KJE...fucking rain!
Well...exams are just round the corner.. so those who are praying, help me pray for good results. those not praying, dun tell me of any activities that you all have..
and those who are not praying or got no activities hor...can call or sms me to encourage and motivate me..haha
I am also burdened by my heavy heart...
But today...after 2 sleepless nights...I found my feet again..
At least i am motivated to mug for my exams and i would say that my progress is wonderful.
My sleeping pattern has gone nuts nowadays and i have never seen myself with such "wonderful" dark eye rings before...I am amazed.
Still alive and with a new haircut.
Siao Gu and me...2 of us have been friends i think since primary 1. i suspect that we even knew each other since kindergarden...only that i cannot recall much of those days.
Lying on my bike on KJE...fucking rain!
Well...exams are just round the corner.. so those who are praying, help me pray for good results. those not praying, dun tell me of any activities that you all have..
and those who are not praying or got no activities hor...can call or sms me to encourage and motivate me..haha
