Strange Curses
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Argh...I hate this feeling.
Dear blogger,
It's 5.14am now and i dunno why i am not in bed. Can't seem to sleep and i just keep rolling about on the sofa. Random thoughts are like running through my head and i can't seem to find out what they are. there seems to me that there are many outstanding things that i have yet to settle but i dun even have an idea of how to go about settling these stuff.
I hate this feeling. I like to be in control of my life. it isn't out of control, but yet it is kind of empty. I am busy with work, which is a good thing but i feel that i have neglected my close friends. weekly mahjong with my kakis seemed so distant. dinner at chomp chomp seemed to be a thing of the past. KTV sessions were long forgotten. Clubbing....huh???
And then these few days i was feeling pretty emotional. seeing really old people makes me sad. seeing underprevailaged people makes my heart aches. it just makes me feel how lucky i have been to be able to live life this wonderfully. i felt a deep sense of guilt that i did not in any ways help out these people. My life was the most fulfilling and enriched back in the days when i visited old folks home and did community services on a regular basis. but all these seem so far from me now.
My phuket trip is coming but yet it is not confirmed. until now, there are people who dunno if they are going. i wonder if it will be fun. i won't be surprised if it turns out that a few people backed out last minute. but i am keeping an open mind and my fingers crossed.
I will also be getting a tattoo. A real one. I found a design that i wanted but have yet to look for an artist. i will ask around to find a good one. and maybe print it out to let a fortune teller look at the tattoo. i believe there are some superstitions to tattoos. the airbrush dragon tattoo that i got, is not really good for me. luckily it's just temporary.
My confirmation is coming this weekend. I am confident that my appraisal will be good but it all depends. i would have worked for 3 months with bnj on Sunday. started on 13th Feb, just before valentine's day and now, my confirmation is on mother's day. Hopefully all bodes well for me in time to come.
I guess i am worrying alittle too much about my life. there's a saying that goes like "the boat will straighten itself once it reaches the harbourfront". I am a good problem solver too after all, nothing much can hold back a determined kenny. after typing all these out to you, i am feeling a little better. maybe i just need a channel to spend all the energy built up in me. BUT i still can't get to sleep.
Signing Off
Strange Sentiments - Kenny
It's 5.14am now and i dunno why i am not in bed. Can't seem to sleep and i just keep rolling about on the sofa. Random thoughts are like running through my head and i can't seem to find out what they are. there seems to me that there are many outstanding things that i have yet to settle but i dun even have an idea of how to go about settling these stuff.
I hate this feeling. I like to be in control of my life. it isn't out of control, but yet it is kind of empty. I am busy with work, which is a good thing but i feel that i have neglected my close friends. weekly mahjong with my kakis seemed so distant. dinner at chomp chomp seemed to be a thing of the past. KTV sessions were long forgotten. Clubbing....huh???
And then these few days i was feeling pretty emotional. seeing really old people makes me sad. seeing underprevailaged people makes my heart aches. it just makes me feel how lucky i have been to be able to live life this wonderfully. i felt a deep sense of guilt that i did not in any ways help out these people. My life was the most fulfilling and enriched back in the days when i visited old folks home and did community services on a regular basis. but all these seem so far from me now.
My phuket trip is coming but yet it is not confirmed. until now, there are people who dunno if they are going. i wonder if it will be fun. i won't be surprised if it turns out that a few people backed out last minute. but i am keeping an open mind and my fingers crossed.
I will also be getting a tattoo. A real one. I found a design that i wanted but have yet to look for an artist. i will ask around to find a good one. and maybe print it out to let a fortune teller look at the tattoo. i believe there are some superstitions to tattoos. the airbrush dragon tattoo that i got, is not really good for me. luckily it's just temporary.
My confirmation is coming this weekend. I am confident that my appraisal will be good but it all depends. i would have worked for 3 months with bnj on Sunday. started on 13th Feb, just before valentine's day and now, my confirmation is on mother's day. Hopefully all bodes well for me in time to come.
I guess i am worrying alittle too much about my life. there's a saying that goes like "the boat will straighten itself once it reaches the harbourfront". I am a good problem solver too after all, nothing much can hold back a determined kenny. after typing all these out to you, i am feeling a little better. maybe i just need a channel to spend all the energy built up in me. BUT i still can't get to sleep.
Signing Off
Strange Sentiments - Kenny
:: posted by strangesentiments, 5:12 AM
